My Open Letter to Nicole Arbour,
Dear Nicole,
I’m guessing you’ve had a pretty shitty few days. I’m
honestly not here to make them worse. I am here, however, to try and educate
you about the effect that your words may have had. But I’m not talking about the
effect they had on me. I’m a grown woman. I’m 23 years old. And I’m a fatty. I know
this and I am still living my best life. I’m lucky that I am strong enough to
deal with the abuse and general nastiness that comes when you are a fat person,
although I wasn’t always.
The effect I want to tell you about is the one that you will
have had on a young person. Maybe one like my 14 year old cousin (who’s also my
goddaughter and more like my sister). She’s beautiful, like every young person,
and I don’t even know if she’s seen your video. But when I watched it, it was
her that I immediately thought of.
Now, some of the fault for this worry does not lie with you.
The constant perpetuation by the mainstream media that without being a UK size
6 you are not worth the time of day when it comes to any kind of activity is
not something that you started or are responsible for. It’s not you that
chooses to consistently show the same body type as the only one that has any
worth or value, nor are you responsible for the constant pressure for young people
to be sexualised too early (especially young women – case in point, Emma Watson
was sexualised in the media far earlier that Rupert Grint or Dan Radcliffe).
Where you come in is in conjunction with this. Video’s like
yours terrify me because they reiterate that point in a harsh and cruel way. That
young women like my cousin can stumble across your material and be made to feel
that having a larger body type is wrong. I’m not even talking about fat girls.
I have watched my slim, athletically built cousin look at her UK size 10 body
and complain that her thighs are too fat and she needs to lose weight. She
comes from a family of fatties – trust me, she’s not getting this from us. She
plays rugby, she’s in the army cadets, she’s the fittest out of all of us, and
still she doesn’t feel good enough.
And that is what concerns me. Videos that you and others
intend to be funny are scaring young beautiful people. Male or female, gay or
straight, white or a POC, trans or gender queer, or anything else in between -
it doesn’t matter, we should be building them up not tearing them down. Young people who maybe aren’t strong enough to
recognise that no-one else’s opinion matters are seeing videos like yours and
not realising that they do not have to conform to these unrealistic body
standards. And I’m not just talking about the obese kids. I’m talking about the
healthy weight kids, the kids with eating disorders, the girl with the boobs
which are too big and the guy who is too short. Videos like this encourage them
aspire to a photoshopped perfection which they can never reach. They have
another decade in front of them before they start to realise (if they’re like
me) that what we are told and shown by the world maybe isn’t what’s right for
us. And a those ten years could be dangerous ones, in terms of the physical and
mental health repercussions that can come from body image issues.
Bodyshaming in ANY format is cruel and unnecessary. You
showed that you yourself have experienced it when you made the joke about a
blonde explaining things, having obviously been told because you’re a blonde
you’re dumb (or simply heard all the old jokes like I did when I was blonde. Fat
and blonde – they were not a good few years…). That you would perpetuate that
in anyway makes me sad. You’re a woman. You have been judged for your body.
That is the inevitable but sad truth. It makes me sad that someone who appears
to know what it’s like is perpetuating the action.
I don’t want this message to make you feel bad. I want it to
educate you. I want you to understand the repercussions of a video like this
one. As an adult who has fought her way out of depression and is happy, I can watch
your video, shake my head and not let it follow me for the rest of the day.
Some kids watching this may have it follow them for the rest of their life.
That is the reason many people have reacted in the way that
they have. Like me, they are scared for the kids.
So next time you use your platform to talk about an issue like
this one – go for it. I would never stop you expressing your opinions and
encouraging the world to pursue a life that makes them happy and healthy is fantastic.
Just next time think about how you say it. That’s all.
With love (from a fatty)